Sometimes I wonder if it should be possible to plan my future as I would wish it to be. A little bit like the building castles in the sky thing. Does the actual planning, and imagining of future events influence the actual future? I have been thinking about it and I am not sure if and how it works. I sometimes have the feeling that even if I think about things I do not want to happen, happen (regards from Murphy.), and if there is a lot of fear or worry involved, that it is even more likely to happen. The same should apply with the positive side of things: Making a visual board also enhances the possibility of things to happen. So what about the whole " life is a coincidence" thing? Do you believe in coincidence or in pre-determination or in creation? I am not so sure in what I should believe (not that I have to believe in anything, I just like to bounce thoughts around in my head and establish an opinion), or if I should maybe believe in all three of them a little bit? Difficult one. I tend to believe that I actually CAN right my future (because that would be cool).
At this moment I cannot get two things out of my head, and that is first: My very own library (mmmh, I think you know that already). And second, that one day I own my very own cute little book store.
Ok, the first one is very selfish and serves almost only myself. But the second one has a little bit a deeper meaning: Bookstores seem to become a rarity in cities. And if there is one, they are integrated (and therefore degraded in my opinion) into stationary shops or supermarkets. What a pity. I remember visiting Ireland many years ago and I was swept away by the amount of cute little book stores everywhere. I remember holding all those wonderful books in my hand (eventually I acquired my first copy of "Emma" in the shop close to TCD), which have been shelved with such an effort, and so much love for the books. I always felt some sort of spell coming over me when entering one of those tiny shops, rather dark, full of books, and dark brown shelves. How wonderful. I want one too. (Hey, I am just dreaming, or in other words, writing my future...) One where people pop by for a cup of tea, a chat and browsing and showing happiness when finding a long wanted edition or copy.
I really like my iPad. And I like to read the newspaper and other articles on it. But in fact there is nothing but a "real" book. I want to take notes, I want to mark, I want to feel the (old) paper, experience the smell of old books, and for that those kindle readers or iPads are just not made. In Eindhoven, where I live are almost no book stores. One which is really new with a coffee shop inside is rather nice, and another one is in the middle of the busy centre. Is that enough to serve us book nerds? Mmmmh I don't think so. Maybe one day I will be a book shop owner (what would be a nice name for it? Suggestions welcome) and let all my shares in other companies earn the real money ;-). I could make an equal sign between job and passion--how cool is that??, and hahah would live happily ever after.. Not that I do not like my current job, I do, I love it, but there always must be a plan to " what's next?" right...